Tim was my brother slowlygoinground

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What do I have to remember him by? [[My memories of that day|that day]] [[The smell of incense|room that day]] [[His computer|computer]] [[His phone|phone]] [[The music he listened to|music]] [[His art|art]] [[A deck of tarot cards|tarot cards]] [[His PS2|PS2]] [[The games he got me|gift games]] [[His death certificate|death certificate]] [[His grave|buried]] <<if $seenPassages.includesAll("that day", "room that day", "computer", "phone", "music", "art", "tarot cards", "PS2", "gift games", "death certificate")>> \ [[An empty room|https://slowlygoinground.com/tim/an-empty-room]] \ <</if>>

I found a deck of tarot cards in his room and did a reading. "What would Tim think of all this?" [img[images/2022-11-16-tarot-reading.jpg]] ---- He changed one of the cards. [img[images/scan-morgans-tarot-card.jpg]]

My brother, Tim, died on November 12, 2022. He was 28 years old. He was taking care of the house while my parents were away. The last time anyone heard from him was on October 30. He was found in [[his room|What is left]].

[img[images/mr-jiang.jpg]] [img[images/art00.jpg]] [img[images/art01.jpg]] [img[images/tim-self-portrait00.jpg]] [img[images/tim-self-portrait01.jpg]]

[img[images/scan-samsung-phone.jpg]] [[Gallery|his photos]] [[Notes|notes]] [[Recorder|recordings]]

[[2019|photos 2019]] [[2020|photos 2020]] [[2021|photos 2021]] [[2022|photos 2022]]

[[Favorite indie / obscure albums|favorite albums note]] October 12, 2019 [[Favorite movies|favorite movies note]] April 24, 2022 [[I|to watch note]] October 28, 2022

[img[images/2019-03-05.jpg]] March 5 ---- [img[images/2019-04-12.jpg]] April 12 ---- [img[images/2019-06-02.jpg]] June 2 ---- [img[images/2019-06-21.jpg]] June 21 ---- [img[images/2019-09-01.jpg]] September 1 ---- <<button "2020" "photos 2020">><</button>>

[img[images/2020-05-18.jpg]] May 18 ---- [img[images/2020-11-09.jpg]] November 9 ---- <<button "2019" "photos 2019">><</button>> \ <<button "2021" "photos 2021">><</button>>

[img[images/2021-02-14.jpg]] February 14 ---- [img[images/2021-03-21.jpg]] March 21 ---- [img[images/2021-06-14.jpg]] June 14 ---- [img[images/2021-07-04.jpg]] July 4 ---- <<button "2020" "photos 2020">><</button>> \ <<button "2022" "photos 2022">><</button>>

[img[images/2022-01-31.jpg]] January 31 ---- [img[images/2022-02-01.jpg]] February 1 ---- [img[images/2022-02-08.jpg]] Feburary 8 ---- [img[images/2022-03-14.jpg]] March 14 ---- [img[images/2022-03-16.jpg]] March 16 ---- [img[images/2022-03-18.jpg]] March 18 ---- [img[images/2022-10-17.jpg]] October 17 ---- <<button "2021" "photos 2021">><</button>>

It was raining that night we found him, because of course there would be rain. It was drizzling as I drove over with my sister and aunt. Later, after the sun came up, it started pouring. ---- [img[images/2022-11-12-0905am-outside.jpg]] 9:05am ---- [img[images/2022-11-12-0910am-outside00.jpg]] [img[images/2022-11-12-0910am-outside01.jpg]] 9:10am

There are folders of things he recorded. He wanted to be a singer/rapper. I can't speak to the quality of his music. Some of it is embarassing. It's nice to hear his voice though. [[RecordersRecycle]]

<<cacheaudio "oct-21-2022" "audio/RecordersRecycle/2022_10_21_11_01_59.mp3">> <<cacheaudio "june-11-2022" "audio/RecordersRecycle/2022_06_11_17_04_41.mp3">> <<set $seenPassages to []>>

<<link "June 11, 2022 5:04:41pm">> <<audio ":playing" stop>> <<audio "june-11-2022" play>> <</link>> <<link "October 21, 2022 11:01:59am">> <<audio ":playing" stop>> <<audio "oct-21-2022" play>> <</link>>

<<if hasVisited("What is left")>><<link "What do I have left" "What is left">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("that day")>><<link "My memories of that day" "that day">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("room that day")>><<link "The smell of incense" "room that day">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("computer")>><<link "His computer" "computer">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("phone")>><<link "His phone" "phone">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("music")>><<link "The music he listened to" "music">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("art")>><<link "His art" "art">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("tarot cards")>><<link "A deck of tarot cards" "tarot cards">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("PS2")>><<link "His PS2" "PS2">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("gift games")>><<link "The games he got me" "gift games">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("death certificate")>><<link "His death certificate" "death certificate">><</link>><</if>> <<if hasVisited("buried")>><<link "His grave" "buried">><</link>><</if>>

[img[images/scan-ps2-memory00.jpg]] [img[images/scan-ps2-memory01.jpg]] ---- @@.ps2Games;[img[images/ps2-hit-and-run.png]]@@ \ @@.ps2Games;[img[images/ps2-road-rage.jpg]]@@ \ @@.ps2Games;[img[images/ps2-the-sims.jpg]]@@ \ @@.ps2Games;[img[images/ps2-katamari.jpg]]@@ \ When he wasn't using it, I played some of his games.

His room was a mess. [img[images/2022-11-12-1033am-room00.jpg]] <<button "The shelf" "shelf">><</button>> ---- [img[images/2022-11-12-1033am-room01.jpg]] ---- [img[images/2022-11-12-1033am-room02.jpg]] ---- [[It's different now|his room now]]

[img[images/evangelion-platinum-complete.jpg]] My sister and I started getting into anime around 2014. For Christmas, he got us DVD box sets: Neon Genesis Evangelion for my sister, Cowboy Bebop for me. I remember watching Evangelion together with my sister and neither of us understood what was going on at all. He joined us to watch a couple episodes. I don't know what happened to the Cowboy Bebop discs. We also watched the first couple episodes of those together, but I never got around to finishing the series. <<link "The shelf" "shelf">><</link>>

[img[images/clown-dolls.jpg]] I bought these at my favorite thrift store. I kept the one for myself (right) and gave the other two to him (left) and my sister (middle). I still have my doll, somewhere. <<link "The shelf" "shelf">><</link>>

[img[images/2023-03-20-1342pm.jpg]] [img[images/2023-03-20-1356pm.jpg]] [img[images/2023-03-20-figures.jpg]] He was buried on March 20.

I recognized some things. [img[images/2022-11-12-1033am-room-clown.jpg][clown doll]] ---- [img[images/2022-11-12-1033am-room-evangelion.jpg][anime]]

[img[images/2022-11-12-computer04.jpg]] [img[images/2022-11-12-computer07.jpg]] [img[images/2022-11-12-computer09.jpg]] I had my friend help me figure out how to take out the drive from his computer. [img[images/2022-11-12-computer11.jpg]]

[img[images/2023-03-14-room00.jpg]] [img[images/2023-03-14-room01.jpg]] [img[images/2023-03-14-room02.jpg]]

@@.fullImg; [img[images/email-certificate-payment.png]] @@ It cost me eleven dollars.

//Oct 12, 2019// ---- Favorite indie / obscure albums Emma ruth rundle Time peace Laughing stock Up the bracket All we love we leave behind Void Liz phair Mazzy star Against me Between the buried and I Dead Sara Vampire weekend Have nots Autre ne veut anxiety Speedy ortiz Slack Pixies Sonic youth Husker du Fugazi Butthole surfers My bloody valentine Sealings Let them eat jellybeans Hickey X Internet forever At the drive in A day to remember Bring me the horizon Four year strong Mary lou lord Silversun pickups Washed out Best coast Iggy pop Patti Smith French pop girl France girl baby pop Animals Defeater Verse On broken wings Weed hounds Weakling At the gates In flames Burzum Emperor Gevurah Black metal folk music guy Andy stott Dum dum girls Stooges Streetlight manifesto Star fucking hipsters Brand new Littlefoot Whorl Elliott smith Cunninlynguists Bill withers Jazz Rap Indie rap Indie Rnb Rock Metal Electronic Proof searching for Jerry Garcia Eyedea Rnb soul Baduizm Time peace Hot buttered soul Bill withers What's going on Voodoo Aretha Franklin Nina simone Lauryn hill Charles Barkley Prince Nightmares on wax Boards of canada Discord and e-girls and video games had replaced music for me. ---- <<button "Notes" "notes">><</button>>

!!!I //Oct 28, 2022// ---- To watch A glitch in the matrix Cocaine cowboys Almost famous Borat Airplane supernatural lost Moon knight _trrqq ---- <<button "Notes" "notes">><</button>>

!!!Favorite movies //Apr 24, 2022// ---- Lucy Akira Miyazaki I'm just fucking with you The departed Fear and loathing in las Vegas Futurama movie The Crow Dark Knight Crazy Rich Asians Scarface Rocky Fight Club Memento Snatch Big Boss Drunken Master Apocalypse Now Edward Scissorhands Into The Void The Neverending Story Beavis And Butthead Do America Donnie Darko Oblivion Where The Wild Things Are Pulp Fiction Airplane Space Odyssey 3001 The Matrix Annihilation Technotise Tv shows Sopranos The Wire Breaking Bad Rick and Morty Mike Tyson Mysteries Eric Andre Steins Gate Welcome to the NHK Serial Experiments Lain Rurouni Kenshin House FMAB Champloo Gurren Lagann Mirai Nikki Atlanta Wu Tang Tenchi Muyo Teen Titans Spongebob Boondocks Futurama Adventure Time Evangelion Elfen Lied .Hack Death Note Ali G Higurashi Twin Peaks Ballmastrz Tigtone Mind Fuck Mind Screw ---- <<button "Notes" "notes">><</button>>

!!!Sigils //Apr 26, 2022// ---- My transgressions are forgiven Victims of my manic episodes have healed Victims of my drug abuse have healed I am free from guilt I am protected from scandal My public image is shielded My public image is highly appealing My public image is highly alluring My public image is very sexy My private image is very sexy My reputation is great I inspire others I am redeemed Transmute my past. I'm reformed, but I still have that dom energy, dangerous in a sexy way. (King of Swords, 6 of wands) ---- <<button "Notes" "notes">><</button>>

!!!Story idea //Aug 31, 2022// ---- Something about a regular person winning the lottery """__""" cartel """__""" character promised enlightenment enlightenment is actually horrifying """__""" world with different planes spiral staircase trapdoors hidden floors in between planes like a dungeon """___""" Characters heavily based on literal interpretations of the polarities Plot twist: each polarity has both Positive side's dark sides revealed ---- <<button "Notes" "notes">><</button>>

!!!Most Played 30 track(s) | 2:03:24 ---- cyberphonk_demo 33 SHADOW / 66barren 1:25 Kitty Flip 4 99SHADOW 1:54 1x1 Bring Me The Horizon 3:29 Teardrops Bring Me The Horizon 3:35 On Fire Eminem 3:33 Not Afraid Eminem 4:08 No Love (feat. Lil Wayne) Eminem 4:59 again (TV Size) YUI 1:39 XX - CHARLIE SHEEN - XX <<unknownArtist>> 1:39 Won't Back Down (feat. Pink) Eminem 4:25 Rise Mac User 1:21 Kingslayer Bring Me The Horizon 3:40 Seduction Eminem 4:35 Cold Wind Blows Eminem 5:03 Talkin' 2 Myself (feat. Kobe) Eminem 5:00 Parasite Eve Bring Me The Horizon 4:51 Kitty Flip 3 99SHADOW 4:18 Ludens Bring Me The Horizon 4:40 W.T.P. Eminem 3:58 Space Bound Eminem 4:38 You're Never Over Eminem 5:05 Going Through Changes Eminem 4:58 Cinderella Man Eminem 4:38 Obey Bring Me The Horizon 3:40 25 To Life Eminem 4:01 Almost Famous Eminem 4:52 Kids <<unknownArtist>> 5:02 So Bad Eminem 5:25 Mural Lupe Fiasco 8:48 Electric Feel <<unknownArtist>> 3:49

!!!Recently Played 30 track(s) | 1:40:11 ---- Kitty Flip 4 99SHADOW 1:54 (L)MIRL Deftones 5:02 OPSEC hook <<unknownArtist>> 0:21 OPSEC (demo 2) <<unknownArtist>> 1:25 Kitty Flip 3 99SHADOW 4:18 cyberphonk_demo 33 SHADOW / 66barren 1:25 cyberphonkmix2 <<unknownArtist>> 2:02 The Handshake <<unknownArtist>> 3:39 Of Moons, Birds & Monsters <<unknownArtist>> 4:46 Kids <<unknownArtist>> 5:02 Electric Feel <<unknownArtist>> 3:49 The Youth <<unknownArtist>> 3:48 Weekend Wars <<unknownArtist>> 4:12 Time To Pretend <<unknownArtist>> 4:21 Future Reflections <<unknownArtist>> 4:00 Parasite Eve Bring Me The Horizon 4:51 Ludens Bring Me The Horizon 4:40 1x1 Bring Me The Horizon 3:29 Kingslayer Bring Me The Horizon 3:40 Itch For The Cure (When Will ... Bring Me The Horizon 1:26 Obey Bring Me The Horizon 3:40 Teardrops Bring Me The Horizon 3:35 Dear Diary, Bring Me The Horizon 2:44 One Day The Only Butterflies... Bring Me The Horizon 4:03 Mural Lupe Fiasco 8:48 XX - CHARLIE SHEEN - XX <<unknownArtist>> 1:39 XX - EVIL TWIN - XX <<unknownArtist>> 1:34 again (TV Size) YUI 1:39 XX - INTRO - XX <<unknownArtist>> 1:21 Pieces Of What <<unknownArtist>> 2:43

[[Most Played Music|most played music]] [[Recently Played Music|recently played music]]

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Tim Was My Brother

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<<run $seenPassages.pushUnique(passage())>>

[img[images/scan-pokemon-crystal.jpg]] I don't know why I had this in my room.